In Memoriam

For Beth:

I am lost between feelings of loss and sadness and the feelings of happy remembrance. Lost, because every day that goes by without you leaves me struggling to understand why this happened and how to go on. Sad, because I know I will never again hear you laugh and see you smile, or feel you squeeze my hand and because we never got to finish what we started or to travel where we wanted or to see each other, old and tired and in love. But then I think about the wonder of you, and I know that you brought into my life the happiest moments I have ever had. I wonder at the warmth and tolerance in your heart, and the happiness you shared with us and your irrepressible sense of humour. You could laugh like no other and make others feel it and believe it. You are never far from my thoughts and there will always be a piece of you in everything I do. I love you and I miss you.